Two thousand and ten. Another year, where half of the time I was a freshman and a sophmore in college. Started off strong, but didn't persevere till the end to finish strong. Experienced and learned new things about life in God's perspective. Many good memories and many upsetting moments at times. On the last day, I wrote things to give up to God, burned it, and lifted it up to God. A year full of teachings from mistakes, opportunities, people, lessons, the Word and more. I don't want to look back at it and say that it was a bad year just because I didn't manage to end it as well as I wanted it to. I'll turn back to it and know that God has shown me this much in 2O1O for the better for me. And I have ended my year being thankful and glad, including the things that still linger or bother me.
Two thousand and eleven. A new year that I am looking forward to in a positive perspective. I have few things listed in mind for me to accomplish for this year. I don't really consider it as a "New Years Resolution" but more of a, "To Do list" of 2O11. So here it goes!
Trip to Canada/East Coast US
Save Money
Finish School Year Well
Get a (Legal) Job
Lose weight
Summer School
Learn Something New
A lot of them are pretty typical, such as Lose weight, Get a Job, Summer School, finish school year well, and save money. I figure that it's better to leave as a mental note, since it is somewhat important part of my life and I should get into habit of rather than forcing it on myself, such as losing weight. I bet if I enforced and lived out a healthy living style then I could've achieve that sooner than I imagined.
Trip to Canada/East Coast US is THE thing that I'm really looking forward to in 2O11 in the summer! Finally we are going to visit Toronto, 4 years after leaving the country. My dad said we are also going on a road trip around the east coast as well. I can't wait to visit New York. I have always dreamed of going to New York and I'm so excited! I know that this is going to be so much fun! We haven't had a family road trip in a while. Great way to make it up (:
I want to Learn Something New this year. Whether it'd be a skill(dance, cooking, mechanics, instruments, etc) or knowledge about a particular subject or facts, I want to take another step in to what the world has to offer beyond what the media exposes to us. School teaches new things, but I think when taking the initiative to learn in depth, it seems more significant and remains much longer. Maybe it might be something that God wants me to learn in order to use me for. Who knows.
Beyond all that fun and exciting plans, the real New Years Resolution for me this year is Change. We've been told a lot through sermons and teachings that we need to change but sometimes the motivations from the convictions dies so quick. I don't want that anymore. Before, I thought a lot about how I need to change to become a better person. I've tried changing for being a better person that would care for others, or be good and set good examples like what Jesus would do. I've been realizing that a lot of the changes I've put myself was for the better me and the benefit for others. But this year, I want to change for God. I want natural change that comes in response to his love and grace. I want to change to make God satisfied, I want to be a better person for God before satisfying people around me. I want to be molded and shaped towards what God wants rather than what I want myself to be or what others want me to be.
Overall, I don't want to have so much expectations for this new year. I've realized that a lot of the expectations I have are things that only I desire, things that can only satisfy me. It seems tad bit selfish, and it can bring disappointments which aren't that great. So I think I'll try to think of it as, 'God, what do you expect from me this year? What do you have in stored for me in 2O11?' because after all, God loves me and has a perfect plan for me in the end.
